Maya and Leya

A Memory

First thing in the morning, I went outside to tend to the dogs
forgetting that as of last night, there no longer were dogs.

I spent months saying, "I'm not goin to take care of these dogs if you don't."
I spent months taking care of the dogs because you wouldnt,

resenting every moment of it,
but unwilling to leave beings to suffer.

Last night I was relieved as the car drove away with the dogs.
Why am I sad today at the sight of the empty kinnel?

The dogs were just one more situation I couldn't save.
The fact that saving them was never my job in the first place,
was no consolation.